There are still 25 days left to my final exams and year in university. I am very worried but yet not doing anything about it. I cannot go on like this and I have this urgent need to write this post so as to motivate myself and come back at any point of time when I starts to procrastinate. There are a few factors which I think might somehow motivate me a little.
“Procrastination is the thief of time.”
1. Family (Love ones)
picture taken 2 years ago.
This is my dad and I love him alot. Ever since my mum passed away, we only have each other to depend on. Every time when I see his back view walking to his bedroom, it just reminds me how old he has become. He have been slogging for his entire life taking care of my ill grandparents, mum and I. Other lucky parents who are in his age are enjoying life, traveling around the world and getting allowance from their kids. But for my dad, he still have to work extra hard to support my daily expenses in school. Though we are not rich, but I know he tried to give me as much as he could.
Since he tried to make me worry-free so that I won't have to worry about monthly expenses, I think I should do my part by giving him a result slip with flying colours. No matter what, I hope I can make him proud and graduate successfully this year so that he will be able to quit his job and enjoy his life.
2. Family and friends (Annoying ones)
Maybe you are wondering what do i mean by annoying ones. I believe everyone of you sure have one or more relatives and friends who always like to kaypo your results and compare it with their children's one. If you don't face this problem, then lucky you! There are always relatives and friends who love to ask about my results. When I did badly, they'll like, "ohh like that ah, nvm la. work harder again." and change topic. Not even sincere in consoling. Then gossip behind my back about my bad results. But when I did very well, they are like, "wah not bad. you very lucky!". Ya, I'm lucky when I do well, not because I'm smart. *roll eyes*
Perhaps sometimes they are really concern about me or trying to find some topics to chat with me but it really doesn't make someone feels good especially when they did badly for their exams. Its like putting salt on someone's wound.
Also, alot of people especially local university students, MOST of them will think that private university students should be able to pass effortlessly and are stress-less. But fuck them, I don't know about other private unis, its definitely not the case for UOL(university of London). Yes, I'm studying a private uni and only uol students can feel me. I really hate people's tone and dirty looks when they know you get bad results. I wanna walk around with wind filled with glory rather than farts that stink wherever I go.
3. No Regrets
As I've mentioned, this will be my final year which is also very likely to be the last important exam of my life, I hope I will give my best shot. I've always regretted why didn't I do better for my PSLE and better gpa for poly. But no use crying over spilled milk, so I should make use of this final exam and make sure history doesn't repeats itself.
At the end of the day, I will gladly accept my failure if I've done my best. This is the last chance, do it while I am still able to make changes. There should be a beautiful closure to my university life instead of a nightmare. I want to leave the school with my head high up!
“The most painful thing to experience is not defeat but regret”
“You may never know what results come of your action, but if you do nothing there will be no result.”
4. After Exams
25 more days to final exams. After the exams, I can do whatever I want. All I have to do is to make full use of the entire 1 month plus on my studies. JUST 1 MONTH in exchange for a better results and future. Its a good bargain. The key of thinking the things you can do after exams will encourage you to be motivated and endure through the exams.
For me, my main motivation is the taiwan trip that I've planned after the exams.
I can foresee myself shopping and eating along the streets at taiwan. I wanna shop till drop.But before this, there is serious work to do. Study hard and do well for this exam and a relaxing trip will be awaiting for me. I wouldn't want to worry and feel depress about my exams even when I'm at taiwan! Just 1 month of torture and I'll be in paradise!!
“Do It Once, Do It Right. Get It Over With!”
“I’m not telling you it is going to be easy — I’m telling you it’s going to be worth it”
5. What you want in life.
There are quite a few things which I want in life currently.
a) A stable job
I will be competing with not only uol graduates but also graduates from other universities. With NTU and NTU graduates, my private uni degree will surely lose out. Therefore the only way is to try to achieve a better class of honors in order to compete and to be highly demanded by companies. When you have a good grades, companies will try to grab you like a bunch of hungry ghost, but when you have poor grades, they'll shun you as if you are a ghost.
There isn't a specific job that I want to take but I aspire to be a career woman. A confident woman wearing stylish office attire to work and having a cup of starbucks everyday.
But I think there is a higher possibility that I'll end up looking like this.
b) Further Studies
If possible, I wanna try to get a masters degree. I know that in another 5 years down the road, a degree will be very common just like a diploma therefore I think it is important to further my studies to stay competitive. This cannot be achieved unless I secure myself a good degree with a good class of honors. Based on my research, most school prefer students with at least a 2nd lower class. However, if i managed to find a rich husband, this goal will not be necessary. lols.
c) Plastic Surgery
I've always unhappy with my looks and of course, by going for plastic surgery, I hope to be a more beautiful and perfect woman. We only live once and if you can get the chance to be more beautiful, why not? I wouldn't want to sit down there and complain why am I not pretty, I would prefer to do something about it. I am so ready for this that if I have the money right now at this moment, I'll immediately fly over to korea and get my face done. I shall leave this topic another day. But what I wanna say is, if I want to get plastic surgery, I need money which the source comes from my job and only a good degree will give me a higher chance to get a better job. So everything is interlinked, if I can get good results, I am one step nearer to korea.
d) Get a sexy convertible car
I know this requires alot of money in order to get this chick and plus the COE will be fucking expensive. But no harm putting these pictures for excitement and pleasure for the eye right? hahax. WHY ARE THEY SO SEXY???!!!!
Imagine driving these types of cars around, even if you are not extremely pretty, people will still find you a hot chick to be in these cars. But I guess I'll be very poor after going for plastic surgery therefore I shall hook up some rich guys and make them drive me around with these cars. lols! ok, I'm just kidding.
Maybe an average sedan car is good enough, shall not be too greedy. But they are seriously too sexy for me to contain my desire.
“Striving for success without hard work is like trying to harvest where you haven’t planted.”
In conclusion, all these cannot be achieved without a good degree. They are all interlinked. Good degree->higher chance of getting a good job->higher pay->rich women->go plastic surgery->buy a sexy car.
“The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.”
Therefore, if I screw up this final exam, I think my rest of my life will not optimistic and I may end up this.
So, STUDY HARD, this 1 month is not going to be easy but its definitely going to be worth it. ENDURE!
“Don’t wait. The time will never be just right.”
